Took a look at Blogging for the sake of Writing and tried to decide if it is worth a link or not and decided there is something to it.
Some sort of message, thought or meat that is worth digesting, mulling over and or thinking about.
That last part might be redundant and repetitive but sometimes people like to repeat the things they once said at least twice.
Let’s Talk About Fear
Been testing out different styles of writing to see what suits me best and to help me figure out if one or more will serve as a more effective tool for helping me move into the future I see inside my head.
Because that future I see in my head has to move from inside to outside. Has to morph from dream to reality or at least I have to feel like it is.
Have to feel like I am making progress because otherwise I am just a fraud and that is not something I can accept.
Do I fear being a fraud?
Well if being a fraud means I have failed my children then the answer is yes, I fear that.
I don’t fear failing on behalf of my children. I don’t fear coming up short as long as I am doing it for the right reasons.
But I don’t particularly relish the idea of not coming through, of not succeeding.
While it is true we learn from these things it is not the kind of lesson I want to learn. It is the one I hope I have already mastered and that experience enables me to sail past it.
I am following my heart and ignoring the question that comes from my head. Going with my gut full steam ahead believing not just that I will but that I can.
Kind of a backwards approach in some ways because they usually push us to believe we can do something so that we will do it.
But this time around it feels like I am moving into something and that it will happen no matter what I do.
So I sit at the keyboard as an agnostic who isn’t convinced there is a puppeteer pulling our strings and doesn’t believe there isn’t something…more.
The who, what or why aren’t as important to me as they once was because it feels pointless to fight progress and change.
And that my friends is how I view this moment in time.
Doesn’t mean I go blindly or unthinking into the storm, just means that I don’t think there is any choice but to go forward and sail through it.
Creation here I come…again.
Time will tell soon enough whether this sense I have of the future is a real inkling or just a muscle twitch.
It is pretty exciting, the hardest part is feeling like I have to do it all on my own but sometimes that is how it goes.
No worries, I am a Taurus and we keep going. It is how we roll.