Archives for January 2018
I showed my children the video below and told them it would provide them with motivation for making their beds.
My 17-year-old looked at me and asked if this was one of those things I expected him to get/understand/appreciate when he was older.
“What do you think?”
“I think you are trying to manipulate me.”
“It wouldn’t be the first time and it might not be the last. How do you think I got you to start taking baths when you were really little.”
He smiled and told me I should remember that he might have learned how to be sneakier.
“Maybe one day…”
He smiled again and walked away. A short time later I stood in a quiet house and wondered how much longer I get to live with these kids and how much longer I get to teach them.
It goes so very fast.
I don’t think I watched Friday Night Lights until after I moved back from Texas but I do know that every time the music came on I remembered.
Every time I saw certain pictures and images I remembered.
That was enough to make it clear I had to go back and I did it.
All that needs to happen now is to wait and see what happens.
Maybe this and maybe that, but something will happen because nothing isn’t an option.
Some of you know Jack Steiner is not my real name and that January 1 is not my real birthday.
When I started blogging in 2003 or was it ’04 I wanted the ability to write freely without concern about some things.
Not because what I had to share was so controversial or crazy but because I just wanted to write and not be questioned by family/friends.
I wanted to just let go and be free.
For the most part I have done that but like many things in life there have been moments that changed me.
I am not the same 35-year-old guy who followed a wild impulse and started blogging.
While much is different there are things that have changed and it is fair to say that what you read here is generally my real belief or feeling, provided you aren’t reading fiction.
There is a lot of that here, far more than my other blogs.
Birth Of Days
When I first joined Facebook I thought it would be helpful for old Jack Steiner to have a Facebook page.
Since he was me, but not me I gave him an arbitrary birthday of January 1, never thinking that I would get a bunch of birthday greetings.
I am grateful and appreciative forÂ them.
They are a reminder to me about the good and kind people in this world, not that this is limited to those who share the aforementioned greetings.
That is certainly not a requirement for goodness or kindness.
I don’t update this blog or the Jack Steiner Facebook page with the same regularity I used to.
That is not news to those of you who have stuck it out here.
Most of the updates go to the other places and IÂ don’t know if I see that changing.
Nor do I know if that means I am going to shut this down or wrap it into the other blogs.
It is too important and has too much meaning to me, but I do know I am thinking hard about what I ought to do.
Am considering whether to continue to keep this standing as it is or make changes.
There won’t be any rash decisions made on New Years day, but not because of the date but because I need to think hard about what I want and what I need to do.
This place is similar to the others but it has a different feel and audience and probably a bigger footprint.
That is because it has been around a lot longer and when I had more time it received an awful lot of attention.
Maybe it will again, we shall see.
In the interim,Â Happy New Year to you All and may this be our finest year ever.