There Is a *Big* Difference Between What You Need & What You Want

It is not an exaggeration to say that we come from different worlds. He is a single man from the Congo and I am a father from Los Angeles. We are standing next to each other watching children swim and just talking about life.

He has a fantastic accent that is melodious and full of life. He tells me that he loves the spirit of the children here and I smile. He is talking about all of the kids at the party but he is pointing to my daughter.

We’re almost 9,000 miles from his home. The equator runs through the village he grew up in. You can wear a t-shirt and shorts year round.  I am not 9,000 miles from home. We’re miles away from the home I grew up in. I can walk down the main streets and provide you with forty years of background.

He speaks seven languages. I am humbled by that. I grew up in a house where language was important. I am a Peace Corps baby. My folks met in Ecuador. When we were kids if my parents wanted to have a private conversation they spoke Spanish. We all picked up on it. I learned how to read/write speak Hebrew, but the truth is that my Hebrew has gotten pretty rough.

He speaks seven languages, but I can curse in 12. That counts for something but I am not sure what.

****

The boy who used to be a baby but is becoming a giant is seated just behind me. We are talking about school and how you figure out what your career is going to be. I look in the rear view mirror and I see him staring intently out the window. There is a Ferarri and a Lamborghini next to us. I have seen these cars many times before. It really isn’t unusual to see them around L.A., but they still catch my eye.

“Dad, how did you figure out what you wanted to do?”

“I am not doing what I want to do. I am doing what I have to do to get there.”

“That is not fair. You are too old to do that.”

“I am not old and life is not fair. It never was and it never will be. Stop waiting for fair because it will never come. If you want something you figure out how to make it happen and then you go get it.”

He nods his head at me and I feel my jaw clench shut. I believe every word I say but sometimes it irks me to see so many around me get so much so easily. There are families at the school who come from money. Someone worked for that but the second or third generation did not. These other parents who I stand with at the soccer games and birthday parties complain about how hard they work and I laugh.

They talk about being irritated by the service or lack thereof at restaurants and resorts I can’t afford and I laugh. When things are just handed to you it is easy to lack gratitude. It is easy not to appreciate them the way you should.

“The first thing you need to do is to figure out what you need versus what you want.”

There is a moment of silence and then he responds.

“Dad, how do you know the difference? Do you know what it is for you?”

“Yes, I know the difference. I know what it is because I have spent a lot of time thinking about it and I have a lot of life experience you don’t have.”

“How do you get life experience?”

“You live.”

****

Twenty years ago my city burned. I have vivid memories of the L.A. Riots. I have stories. I can tell you about the Northridge earthquake and about the time I was evacuated from a forest fire. I have lots of stories to tell and to share.

My children don’t know them all yet. Some may never be shared. Some won’t be because they just won’t. Kids don’t need to know about all of the crazy things I did in college or earlier.

“Dad, does it ever bother you that Johnny’s dad has a bigger house and a nicer car?”

“Sometimes, but most of the time I don’t care or think about it. Possessions don’t make you happy. You don’t know what happens behind closed doors. Best to focus on yourself. Be a good friend. Be a good brother and be a good son. Figure out what you need and I’ll help you figure out how to get it.”

I believe everything I have said, but now is a harder time. Now is a darker and rougher time. It isn’t as easy to just ignore some things.

****

The children are laughing and chasing each other around the backyard. We are still talking about life.

“Los Angeles must be a little bit different from the Congo.”

He laughs hard.

“I have been in the US for six years now. I spent the first three on the East Coast. It is much too cold there for me. The world is small and the same but different everywhere. I met white people in South Africa who only spoke Afrikanns. That surprised me. ”

He shares a few more stories, mentions Somalia and shudders.

We are from different worlds but today those places intersect.

This is part of Yeah Write.

79 comments
Michelle Longo
Michelle Longo

I really enjoyed this. Lots of good stuff in here - the perspectives, the shifts in the story all landing on the same notion. Great post.

Kristin
Kristin

Incredible observations. Excellent imagery. And 12 languages of curses? Really? Excellent!

Megan Lawing
Megan Lawing

Great job with this. I was very intrigued. And I really want to hear some of your stories now!

Katie
Katie

Amazing how life and experiences bridge even the widest of gaps. I loved your talk with your son. I need to write...it also happens to be what I want...and like you, I'm doing what it takes to get there.

Katie
Katie

Amazing how life and experiences bridge even the widest of gaps. I loved your talk with your son. I need to write...it also happens to be what I want...and like you, I'm doing what it takes to get there.

jamie
jamie

Such a great post Jack. I love how you put this into perspective.

WilyGuy
WilyGuy

Nice post. I often wonder if I need 3/4 of the stuff I wanted.

Delilah
Delilah

Great post. I try to not tell my kids that life isn't fair because that's what I was told all the time as a kid. I hated it then. My mom still says it and it still drives me insane. I struggle with what the right thing to say is sometimes. And I think sometimes I just have to let my kids find out things on their own.

Louise Ducote
Louise Ducote

Love all the different settings and characters here, and especially the dialogue.

TriGirl
TriGirl

I think the comment you made to your son about not knowing what happens behind closed doors is so important. I remember being a teenager and thinking one of my friends had the best life, with the best parents. Then suddenly they were getting a divorce. You just never know, so you're better off concentrating on your own life rather than striving for that perfect life of someone else's; especially when it's not so perfect after all.

christina
christina

i absolutely LOVE this. i love the way you wrote this, the voice you used, and the story itself. i hope to one day have this kind of rapport with my daughter. GREAT great piece and i cannot wait to read more. thank you so much for sharing.

kgwaite
kgwaite

This is perfect - I've been doing a lot of reading on this lately (Wendell Berry and Wes Jackson) and I find that I have so much more than I need...or want.

SisterhoodoftheSensibleMoms
SisterhoodoftheSensibleMoms

My daughter and I were lucky enough to meet a gentleman from the Congo. His stories and the comparing and contrasting of our cultures was fascinating. Ellen

Billy Delaney
Billy Delaney

We see what others have, but we don't see what they have not? Or what they really want. I am an immigrant to this United States, and by choice, if you please. Within the squeeze of life and the running gun battle of wants and needs, we all do pretty good here. JackB, a post for thinking. I remember my girl wondering why I was not as rich as others. Why she did not have what others had, and many more wonderings like them. I told her that I could not answer that, as I was as unsure of that question as she was unsure of the reasons for it? I am an Ameripean! Born in a culture not American, living in a culture not European. I relish the dance it brings to me daily. I too like you learned Hebrew, Some Greek, English and French: which I am teaching myself yet again. Thanks for a post like this, and enjoy the man who easily moves among you with a conversation for the times we all are unsure in. Billy

Billy Delaney
Billy Delaney

We see what others have, but we don't see what they have not? Or what they really want. I am an immigrant to this United States, and by choice, if you please. Within the squeeze of life and the running gun battle of wants and needs, we all do pretty good here. JackB, a post for thinking. I remember my girl wondering why I was not as rich as others. Why she did not have what others had, and many more wonderings like them. I told her that I could not answer that, as I was as unsure of that question as she was unsure of the reasons for it? I am an Ameripean! Born in a culture not American, living in a culture not European. I relish the dance it brings to me daily. I too like you learned Hebrew, Some Greek, English and French: which I am teaching myself yet again. Thanks for a post like this, and enjoy the man who easily moves among you with a conversation for the times we all are unsure in. Billy

Chopperpapa
Chopperpapa

"You don’t know what happens behind closed doors. " That says it all.

Chopperpapa
Chopperpapa

"You don’t know what happens behind closed doors. " That says it all.

Mayor Gia
Mayor Gia

Hmm interesting. It's all about perspective in life..

kristin
kristin

Teaching gratitude, regardless of your socio-economic status can be very difficult. Sounds like you are doing a good job.

Emily
Emily

This is interesting. I like the way you framed the lessons you're trying to teach your son with the bits of your conversation with the man from the Congo. Really vivid and well-written!

Emily
Emily

This is interesting. I like the way you framed the lessons you're trying to teach your son with the bits of your conversation with the man from the Congo. Really vivid and well-written!

stephanie
stephanie

Perspective is the key, isn't it? Travel offers that, and second to that would be talking to people from other countries, as you report. Our society becomes more xenophobic by the day thanks to all the fear mongering by the pundits. So your post goes a long way to offering the perspective we would do well to consider. I enjoyed the tone of the post, the introspection of it.

Jack
Jack

Hi Michelle, Thank you. Perspective isn't always easy to find, but it sure helps.

Jack
Jack

Hi Michelle, Thank you. Perspective isn't always easy to find, but it sure helps.

Jack
Jack

Hi Kristin, When I was in college we used to hold International Cursing hour. I think we got up to 28 different languages. It was kind of fun.

Jack
Jack

Hi Kristin, When I was in college we used to hold International Cursing hour. I think we got up to 28 different languages. It was kind of fun.

Jack
Jack

Hi Megan, Welcome to the blog. Thank you for your kind words. If you keep hanging out here I can promise that you will hear lots of stories. Hope you are having a great day.

Jack
Jack

Hi Megan, Welcome to the blog. Thank you for your kind words. If you keep hanging out here I can promise that you will hear lots of stories. Hope you are having a great day.

Jack
Jack

Hi Katie, I love hearing from other writers. There is a sense of community and shared struggle that is really nice to have.

Jack
Jack

Hi Katie, I love hearing from other writers. There is a sense of community and shared struggle that is really nice to have.

Jack
Jack

Thank you Jamie. I tried really hard to share the conversation here in a way that would make people appreciate it.

Jack
Jack

The more I think about it, the less I want. Beauty in simplicity.

Jack
Jack

Sometimes the best way for kids to learn is on their own. We can tell them about certain things but there is no substitute for experience.

Jack
Jack

Thank you. People are fascinating.

Jack
Jack

I know a bunch of stories like that. From the outside they look like they have these great and amazing lives but something isn't working for them. I have seen this happen several times recently. It is very sad, but not all that uncommon.

Jack
Jack

Hi Christina, Thank you. I try to spend as much time as I can just talking with the kids. I figure time will come when they won't be so interested so...

Jack
Jack

Hi Christina, Thank you. I try to spend as much time as I can just talking with the kids. I figure time will come when they won't be so interested so...

Jack
Jack

Hi K, We moved last August and I made a point to get rid of as much as I could. I only wish that I disposed of more. So much of what we have in my home is just not all that important.

Jack
Jack

Hi K, We moved last August and I made a point to get rid of as much as I could. I only wish that I disposed of more. So much of what we have in my home is just not all that important.

Jack
Jack

Hi Ellen, It really is a different world, simply amazing.

Jack
Jack

Hi Ellen, It really is a different world, simply amazing.

Jack
Jack

Hi Billy, Good to see you. I like your description of yourself as an Ameripean. I heard good things about your presentation at SoSlam. Unsure and uncertain times makes for interesting bedfellows but it also lends itself to much more.

Jack
Jack

Hi Billy, Good to see you. I like your description of yourself as an Ameripean. I heard good things about your presentation at SoSlam. Unsure and uncertain times makes for interesting bedfellows but it also lends itself to much more.

Jack
Jack

Yep. What goes on out of sight is anyone's guess.

Jack
Jack

Perspective makes a huge difference and so does attitude. They can be the difference between joy and sadness.

Jack
Jack

Hi Kristin, We're like everyone else- flying blind and pretending that we know exactly what we are doing. ;)

Jack
Jack

Hi Kristin, We're like everyone else- flying blind and pretending that we know exactly what we are doing. ;)

Jack
Jack

Hi Emily, Thank you. I am a collector of moments in time and this just worked.

Jack
Jack

Hi Emily, Thank you. I am a collector of moments in time and this just worked.

Jack
Jack

The smaller the world becomes the more insular we seem to get. It is sad and infuriating. I am not naive enough to believe that everyone is good or bad, but I know from experience that most people are pleasant enough. We live our lives and do the best we can. Travel helps to build bridges between us.

Jack
Jack

The smaller the world becomes the more insular we seem to get. It is sad and infuriating. I am not naive enough to believe that everyone is good or bad, but I know from experience that most people are pleasant enough. We live our lives and do the best we can. Travel helps to build bridges between us.