I have been working hard to come up with a thoughtful and coherent post about my thoughts and feelings regarding Rosh Hashanah and all that surrounds it. I write and edit and write and delete and write and scream because none of the words carry the weight or import of my heart.
I stand here before G-d acknowledging a few basic truths, or truths as I understand and accept them.
- I believe in G-d.
- I believe that there are multiple paths to G-d.
- I believe that Judaism is the best path for me to G-d.
- I do not believe that you have to believe in G-d to be a good person.
- I have an obligation to my family, friends and community to try and improve the world.
- I sometimes fail but I try hard to meet this obligation.
Those are some of the basic thoughts. Had I been asked to engage in my own akedah I would have refused. I have to believe that Yitzhak suffered real trauma from this, but who really knows.
A couple more thoughts. I am still trying to be the man that my father is. I still seek his approval, but not because I haven’t received it. I have. There is no doubt that my father is proud of me, but I cannot help but be the dutiful son and look to him for the example.
Last year when my father lay upon his death bed and truly became just a man to me I learned many different things, some of which I have shared and others that I have not but may some day.
In the year to come I pray to be a better person and hope for a year of less violence, less stress and less strain around the world. I pray that we wake up to a world in which healthcare is affordable, education is plentiful and no one goes hungry.
A happy and healthy year to all. Shana tovah to everyone.