Back in the days when I was but a wee lad in school I was known for being among the first to finish my exams. It wasn’t something that I tried to do nor is it a skill that I have tried to pass along to my children. There are lots of reasons why this is so, but most stem from Â just trying to help them avoid making mistakes. All the old saws, “measure twice, cut once” or “haste makes waste” come to mind. But there is a reason why we still hear about them.
And the reason is that they make sense. So you would think that by now I would have taken them to heart and made them a part of me. But I haven’t because they don’t suit me. I want them to. Really, I’d like them to be more substantive in my life but that is not how I roll. While I can say that I have made my share of mistakes I can also say that I was a good student. I didn’t have to try very hard to get good grades. Most things have come relatively easily to me.
That is not to say that I have never had to work because I certainly have. I have put hours into many of the things that I am good at. My skill and expertise isn’t derived solely from natural ability. Sometimes I forget this. Sometimes I become impatient and the new blog is a perfect example of this. I want it to be done. I want to be an expert who can make it sing, but I am not. I may one day be, but I am not him yet.
So I try to take a deep breath and remember that in time I will get to where I am going. The blog will become what I want it to be. These things will happen because I will work hard, learn what I can and push to make the changes I want. I know these things will happen because I look back upon my life and see the evidence of prior successes in similar endeavors.
Still, I can’t help but wish that I could move time at my pace.