New Year’s Resolutions, Deodorant & Car Repairs
â€œCourage is not having the strength to go on; it is going on when you don’t have the strength.â€â€• Theodore Roosevelt
A reader once sent me an email in which they offered advice that they said would make my blog better and more popular. Here is what they shared with me:
- Stop updating so frequently. We can’t keep up and most people don’t care.
- You are too negative. You bring us down and people don’t like that.
That’s not verbatim but it is very close. I didn’t respond to their email and it wasn’t because I couldn’t.
I didn’t because I couldn’t think of a reason why I needed to convince them to like my blog or why they needed to change. I suppose that some of it was because I wasn’t going to and I didn’t expect them to either.
Why I Do What I Do
I blog the way I do because it pleases me. This makes me happy. My posts are as long or as short as they need to be and they cover the topics that need to be covered. Some people love my writing, some hate it and some are indifferent.
This is ok. It is life and it is how the world works. I am powerful and capable of changing many things but this is not a battle I need to fight. I pay attention to those battles, especially around the new year.
I probably should qualify that and say I am talking about Rosh Hashanah, the Jewish New Year. It is just around the corner and I am feeling a bit unsettled.
This happens every year. I could give you a long winded story about why but it is well after midnight and it is probably not necessary.
Instead let me say that part of why I am unsettled is because I am in the midst of big changes that have taken far longer to settle than I had planned for and it is a bit disruptive.
It is also because this is the time of year for introspection and while my overall sense of who I am and what I am about it is good there are things that I am unsatisfied with, hence I am unsettled.
This weekend we bought deodorant for my son. Today he asked me to show him how to use it. It may sound silly but it was cool and I suspect a precursor to shaving.
We are a long way off before that comes, but it is something that I have long looked forward to. I remember my father teaching me. I am not in a rush to teach my son, but I expect it will be at an older age than I was for the very simple reason that his hair is light brown.
My beard is black and distinct. His shadow will be less noticeable than mine. He doesn’t know that is a perk, but he will.
This past weekend I watched him play soccer and saw him really begin to come into his own. He has been making big improvements for a while now, but it is clear that things click in a way they didn’t before.
The boy is really turning into the preteen I have been expecting to show up. I am both excited and nervous.
His Bar Mitzvah is next year. How the hell am I going to pay for it.
I am sure I’ll figure it out but moments like today don’t help. I am referring to car repairs.
Today was pretty simple, it was just a new battery but it was the latest in a string of repairs on the cars. New hoses, radiator, battery, belts and an assortment of this and that.
I am a writer but my name isn’t Stephen King or JK Rowling. The major book deals haven’t rolled in…yet. The faucet is dripping and not quite turned on full bore so the cash that comes is in dribs and drabs.
Maybe I’ll get lucky and see the flood sooner than later.
In the interim I suppose I’ll spend some time thinking about who I am and who I want to be.
Be The Blogger You Want To Be
In regard to blogging I am focused on being the blogger I want to be and I strongly encourage you to be do the same. If you aren’t doing this for yourself and you aren’t having fun you won’t last.
Be the blogger you want to be. That is all.