Don’t Regret Not Living Your Life Part II

“For every minute you are angry you lose sixty seconds of happiness.”

“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.”

“Dare to live the life you have dreamed for yourself. Go forward and make your dreams come true.”
― Ralph Waldo Emerson

I looked down and saw blood in the toilet and felt the anger inside me rising.  I was at that place where it was only going to take one thing to bring out in an explosive and destructive manner.

It is a piece of me I keep hidden from virtually everyone because it rarely adds value to my life and frankly that sort of raw emotion leaves me feeling far too naked.

During the rare moments when he comes out I find myself reveling in the moment, the rush of adrenaline and the “I don’t give a fuck” attitude are fun, but rarely helpful.

That boy I once was didn’t have responsibilities so it didn’t matter what he did because his actions only helped or hurt me.

That Was Then

Wedding Song– Bob Dylan
Positively 4th Street– Bob Dylan
Old Alabama– Braid Paisley
Feel Like Making Love– Bad Company

Went to bad last night feeling a bit edgy and by the time I had woken up the edge was razor sharp and I wanted to let loose. Didn’t remember my dreams but could tell they had served as a whetstone for the feeling.

It was exacerbated by the sounds of some jackass screaming obscenities. Not how I want to wake up, especially on a Sunday morning.

Tried to fall back asleep and when slumber wouldn’t come I glared at the wall and thought about whether the fool below would appreciate two hundred some pounds of angry  Jack sharing his thoughts and then something happened.

The anger just faded away.

Don’t know why, but it just disappeared. Rolled out of bed, took a quick shower and walked down the street to grab some groceries and breakfast.

The Most Important Part Of Blogging

If you are one of the scanners that subhead probably grabbed your attention and now you are wondering where I am going with this. Well, I wrote Don’t Regret Not Living Your Life about a year ago and now it is time to look back.

It is time to look back and see what sort of progress has been made. Time to use the blog as a chronicle of life. Time to tie in the Emerson quotes from above with this post and provide an introduction to one of my favorite videos.

I love the video below because it chronicles life and the important moments. I love it because I use it as a reminder about what is important and why I try be intentional and purposeful in what I do.

Sometimes I fall short, but I can live with that because I see the effort I make to improve things. I see the effort to make changes. The moments in my life that I am least proud of are usually those where something happened and I didn’t do anything.

There aren’t many of those, but I dislike those far more than the ones where I made bad choices because at least I made a choice.

I believe in action and decision.

Action And Decision

Who I am as a person and a father are two different people, yet the same.

The goal is to show my children that life is meant to be lived and that we experience a variety of moments. The people that live are those that don’t just let things happen. They are active in trying to take control of their destiny and they do what they can to be the captain of their ship.

Ask me to share something I am proud of and I will tell you that when life got hard I didn’t lie down and let it overwhelm me. I found a way to stand back up and move forward. I found a way.

It might not be the best way, but it is my way and I own it.

I don’t know when I am going to die, but dammit whenever that day comes, tomorrow or a thousand years from now my children and those I care about will know I tried to live and I didn’t just pass the days.

What about you?

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Comments

  1. I love this so much. I try to be intentional about the way I live, too. The more intentionally I live, the less I regret. I also love the image of the “whetstone” – such a full image.

  2. We all struggle with just bidding time; I do try to be more purposeful and cognitive of my surroundings and getting more in the moment. It takes work however, it’s far too easy for me to be a slug….

    Sometimes you just have to shut your mind down and quit thinking about ‘what’s next’ and just be ‘all in’ wherever you are at that time.

    • Hi Bill,

      I like that last line. It resonates more than ever now. With all of the multitasking we do the idea of being “all in” makes more sense and seems more important than ever to me.

  3. You just gave me the inspiration that was tickling the back of my brain. It rolled out of the back and came fully forward. How about that.

    I like the footprints, the baby being walked to the pool, and the silly pink and blue hat that my kids had too, the best of all.

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