Mirrors lie right?
I know this because The Boss, Bruce Springsteen told us in Tunnel of Love. Remember what he said?
“There’s a crazy mirror showing us both in 5-D
I’m laughing at you you’re laughing at me”
Blog turns ten this month and I turn 45 tomorrow. Happy birthday to us all.
Ten years of blogging and I don’t know a fucking thing about it and yet I know everything.
I know that a kid I play ball with told me that only old people listen to Springsteen and that any stories I have about how he used to be the biggest artist around should be enjoyed by fat women who used to be skinny and forget that they drive minivans.
Kid laughs at me as he drives to the basket. I silently scream at my feet to move faster, “why can’t you move faster. You used to move faster.”
I goad the kid into trying to post me up. He bangs into me twice doesn’t move me and tries to pump fake me into the air. I strip the ball from his hands and dare him to try to take the ball out of my hands.
My feet don’t move like they used to but these gorilla hands and arms are as strong as ever.
Morning comes too soon and I roll out of bed and yell at my back to work with me, I am too young to look like a question mark.
Are You Burnt Out On Blogging?
Traffic isn’t what it once was and comments are few and far between. The blogosphere is filled with suggestions about how to fix things. They tell me if I do this and that I can build something bigger and better.
I look at the blog and think about all the time it will take to make those changes. Got tons of old posts that have no pictures in them because Pinterest didn’t exist and I wasn’t sharp enough to realize that images would make the posts “pop.”
Got ten thousand some odd posts and 9,827 broken links. Some are from bloggers whose comments once linked to blogs they have abandoned and some are from YouTube posts that were embedded because the video really added something Â to the post.
Sometimes I go back and realize I don’t remember what the video was about, can’t say if it was a song or something else. Must have been really memorable if I can’t remember what it was.
Periodically hear from people who used to hang out at the blog. Sometimes they tell me if they weren’t so busy they would come visit again and sometimes they say they know all of my stories, not even the Shmata Queen knows them all and she knows many.
But what gets me the most is the gut feeling that my writing is so much better than it used to be and now they are missing it.
Reminds me of the court.
Twenty-five years ago I could really move up and down the court.
A younger man’s body capable of doing so much and it did, but damn if it wouldn’t be more fun to have it now. Damn if I don’t look back now and think about how I didn’t appreciate it the way I should have.
The Mirror Lies
The mirror lies but I am not sure which mirror I am thinking of now. Is it the one in my mind or the one in my bathroom.
Won’t lie and say there aren’t moments where I miss being that younger guy but I wouldn’t want to go back unless I knew then what I know now.
Yeah it is the age old refrainÂ of those who have lived a little but you can’t screw an old head on young shoulders. Some things aren’t understood or truly appreciated without some life experience.
Some things were better than and some things are better now but the keystone in this arch is being aware of where we are today because now is all we have.
Bruised egos may not always appreciate some of that but sometimes if they wipe their eyes and take a deep breath they see the benefits and advantages of the present.
Are You Burnt Out On Blogging?
Might be some truth in that. Might be elements that I just don’t feel like dealing with any more or maybe I just have a better idea about where it is I want to focus my time. Might just be that life experiences has helped make it clear what I want as well what I need.
What do you think?