He Tried To Break My Spirit
I am not a tough guy but I know how to take a punch. Been hit a million times in a million different places.
Head, gut, kidney, nose- you name it and I have had the pleasure of making its acquaintance. It being a fist meeting flesh and though I have never enjoyed it, I always took what was given and returned the favor.
It was my way of saying thank you.
Alone On The Soccer Fields
The kids played soccer today. Two games, in two different places. Two different age groups. Two different sets of parents.
Yet I was alone.
It wasn’t because I was excluded, shunned or told to stay away.
I was alone by choice and by need.
There are things going on. Stuff is happening and I am doing what I do when there isn’t quite as much magic in the moment as there is mud.
I am walking through it, trudging when necessary and upon occasion scooping up handfuls and flinging it at the walls, passerbys and whatever else is around me
Never know what it will stick to.
Life Has Its Moments
Sometimes life has its moments where you visit familiar places and think about things that have happened there. There are weekends at the lake when you reminisce about people who once shared those moments with you and wonder about this and that.
It is not a bad thing or at least I never see it as such, but I am given to moments of introspection. I enjoy them and when they come to visit I do my best to say hi and then send them on their way.
What is done is done and the past can’t be changed but the future remains to be altered and or adjusted.
Looking Back as I Look Forward
I carry very few regrets but those I have are monsters that sometimes rear their heads. One in particular has reappeared and he has tried to break my spirit.
Won’t happen. I have taken too many punches and gotten back up too many times to worry about not being able to do it.
But the blog requires brutal honesty and I will provide it. Here is the summary:
A situation arose and I did the best I could to manage it. I made mistakes along the way but I made a lot of smart decisions too. There is a price to be paid for all of our actions and I am concerned about the bill for this one.
I am worried because it is not just me who has to pay for it and I don’t know how it will all shake out.
Experience tells me it will work out because I will manage it and I will find a way, but that doesn’t negate the concern. It merely makes it manageable.
There is a clip and a quote from Field of Dreams that I have shared here before. It is a favorite of mine and one that resonates with me. I’ll leave you with it and the reminder that I am doing the 30 days of blogging deal that so many other bloggers are doing.
Yep, I am posting every day for 30 days, sometimes multiple times a day.
See you in the morning.
“We just don’t recognize life’s most significant moments while they’re happening. Back then I thought, “Well, there’ll be other days”. I didn’t realize that that was the only day.” Dr. Archibald “Moonlight” Graham – Field of Dreams