Sometimes you struggle to find the right way, the best way, the perfect way to set the tone. (February 27, 2016)
“The most important things are the hardest to say. They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them — words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they’re brought out. But it’s more than that, isn’t it? The most important things lie too close to wherever your secret heart is buried, like landmarks to a treasure your enemies would love to steal away. And you may make revelations that cost you dearly only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you’ve said at all, or why you thought it was so important that you almost cried while you were saying it. That’s the worst, I think. When the secret stays locked within not for want of a tellar but for want of an understanding ear.”
― Stephen King, Different Seasons
“Writing isn’t about making money, getting famous, getting dates, getting laid, or making friends. In the end, it’s about enriching the lives of those who will read your work, and enriching your own life, as well. It’s about getting up, getting well, and getting over. Getting happy, okay? Getting happy.”
― Stephen King, On Writing
“They didn’t agree on much. In fact, they didn’t agree on anything. They fought all the time and challenged each other ever day. But despite their differences, they had one important thing in common. They were crazy about each other.”
― Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook
I am not a homeowner. I used to be, but I am not any more and I haven’t quite decided if I ever will be again. Been close to three years since we sold our house and now I feel a bit like a professional itinerant.
The boy who made me a father is 13 now and is 18 months away from starting high school. He told me today that his friends told him that it is important to start looking for a high school when you are in 7th grade.
He said he is concerned because he is half way through 7th grade and he hasn’t done any looking so he wanted to know if his parents had. Told me that he didn’t want to be left behind and then asked me if I was going to tell him we have to move.
I told him that I didn’t know the answer to that question because I don’t know where I want him to go to high school. It is mostly true, mostly meaning that if I had unlimited money there are some private schools that I would seriously consider.
Can’t say I would definitely send him to those any more than I can say I would definitely send him to some of the public schools that are on the table. It all requires more thought.
What I did tell him was that the advantage of not owning property is that it provides flexibility that didn’t exist before. We can look around and try to identify the best school and then do our best to move into the neighborhood.
And then I thought about what it means to have a child in high school and how much closer I am to retirement age than I once was. Thought about how it is nothing more than a concept and a dream right now and wondered what I would do if I really had enough money to retire.
“What really knocks me out is a book that, when you’re all done reading it, you wish the author that wrote it was a terrific friend of yours and you could call him up on the phone whenever you felt like it. That doesn’t happen much, though.”
― J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye
Sometimes I know and sometimes I feel and sometimes I think there is a book locked inside of me that will put me in the position to retire where I want to, when I want to.
Of course it can only happen if I write the words down and don’t keep them trapped inside.
But more often than not I take a more traditional and practical approach and think about where I should be living. The thoughts focus on places that provide a good education and affordable housing.
And then I start to see myself moving away from the beach and my home state towards the center. See myself moving back to my adopted home and setting up shop there.
I could buy a home there and be a homeowner again and I could do it more easily and faster than I can here.
Speed isn’t necessarily the biggest concern or consideration, education is. And as a semi-professional itinerant I am in a position to have more influence on what high school we call home. Can always move to the neighborhood that offers that opportunity and maybe while we are there I’ll write that book and find myself laughing because everything changed for the better.