The Story of Two Souls
A brief tale of fiction because I am too tired to comment on Peter Jennings and not tired enough to go to sleep.
This story has a begining and a middle but there is yet to be an ending to it and in some ways that is most fitting because it is a story of love and not just any kind of love but one that is all consuming.
The love we speak of is the kind in which you are addicted to the other person, they are your air and your blood. They share your heart and own a piece of your soul. It is the best kind of love and the rarest to find outside of the love of a parent for their child.
Daniel and I had been friends for quite a few years when he first mentioned Anne to me. They were both married to other people and happily so, but somehow they had met online through a bulletin board they both posted upon.
At first it hadn’t been anything more than a minor flirtation that slowly matured and developed into a deep friendship and then into a raging inferno of love and lust. It was not planned and it caught the two of them by surprise as it was clear that the feelings that they had were quite deep and very strong.
In some ways it was a very different and unique kind of love. Daniel and Anne were not strangers to love as they had both had past loves and of course they were both married to people that they thought were besheret. Neither one of them had gone to the chuppah with any thought or sense that one day they would view the work week the way that they had viewed their weekends for it was only at work that they had real freedom to write and speak with each other.
Their love was different because of how they had met. They were an online match, almost a cliche in the information age but it was an accurate description. So it was when they began communicating with each other they were able to avoid the pitfalls and challenges that sexual tension in men and women brings. There was no concern about whether he should try and kiss her or if she should let him. No worries about finding the perfect dress, shirt, jeans, heels, cologne or perfume. It was very freeing.
Anne and Daniel bypassed all that and concentrated on communicating with each other because words were all they had. And something interesting and amazing happened, there was complete honesty. It was the kind of honesty that you sometimes feel when you share your lifestory with the stranger who sits next to you on a long flight.
I remember well the day that Daniel told me about how happy he was and how scared. Somehow he had stumbled into or onto a relationship that he knew was different. Every time he spoke with Anne his heart sang and he knew that she was someone special.
Anne felt the same way. Daniel said that he felt foolish at how fast she figured it out and how at ease he felt when she told him she loved him. There was no awkward moment and no uncomfortable silence. He smiled and repeated it back to her. He loved her too and he apologized that he had to say it over the phone and that he wasn’t able to show her in person his true feelings.
That moment changed their lives in a dramatic way because it called their current married status into question. It changed their relationship, molded it and forged it into something that had to be characterized as a torrid love affair. It was a burning love based upon friendship, respect, and believe it or not incredible desire.
When Daniel told Anne that he was going to find a way to come and see her he could feel her heart pounding and he knew that when they finally kissed he was going to have to hold her firmly because her knees would buckle. That kiss would be another defining moment.
Shortly thereafter they found a way to meet. It was only for a few hours but when they hugged each other it felt like they had always been together. Lovemaking was something that could not be described as anything but the merging of two souls in common cause and desire. They moved together as one and their goodbye was bittersweet. For though they knew that they would see each other again it felt as if a hole was being ripped out of their being. There was a huge gaping wound that bled and ached.
If there is such a thing as love at first sight they were the couple that would have experienced it. Later that week Anne received a card from Daniel that said:
“One kiss. One touch. One man and one woman and nothing will ever be the same. You know it and I know it and we live it.”
She cried tears of joy. At her desk she looked out of the window and wept because she could imagine losing this man but wasn’t sure how she could manage to get him. She had never wanted to be the other woman. It wasn’t even a passing thought.
Until she met Daniel she had thought of herself as being very happy with her marriage and her first husband. Her first husband, that is how she thought of the man she lived with. He was the father of her children and someone she cared about but not someone she wanted sharing her bed any longer.
She was a good wife and a good mother. She doted on her children and she tried to keep the first husband happy in all ways, but every time she slept with him her heart cried out as if she was being violated.
For his part Daniel was in a similar situation. He felt trapped and experienced bouts of extreme sadness at the time he had lost and would not be able to spend with Anne. She was so good to him and did so much to make him happy but he never could completely forget about his own home life.
It was also good and he was also a good husband and a good father. But Daniel knew that it was only a matter of time before it was obvious to everyone that his heart had a new flame and it made him feel guilty.
He hadn’t gone searching. He hadn’t done anything to shortcircuit the marriage but somehow he had found someone new and he couldn’t imagine living without her. Sometimes he would try and be practical and think logically about it. He’d think of walking away and telling her that he was sorry, that it was too late.
But every time he thought about it a dull pain in his head appeared and a sharp ache in his side. And he knew that one day they would leave their current spouses and go to each other. One day they would have to face the pain of ending one love affair and beginnning a new one and though the thought of it pained him he was more upset by the guilt he felt at the excitement of starting a new life.
So there you have much of the story of of Daniel and Anne. It is tale with a beginning and a middle but the end is not yet written. Some loves can only be delayed but they can never be prevented.
LaNita August 17, 2007 at 8:26 am
Wow, this is totally my Life. Written out for me, except for a few things. He’s married with 2 small children. I’m not married, have one 13 year old son.
My baby’s dad lives with a wife who likes to argue and drink beer every day like he does.
I like a peaceful environment. Anyway, this particular gentleman who has stole my heart, says he is MADly in love with his wife.
But, EVERYTIME he looked at me, it was as if he was looking at a Diamond or a Chocolate Sundae with nuts.
I tried to avoid him because I am very much against messing with married men. And, I don’t like men with a lot of money because they are usually work-acholics.
I’m a sensual person, and I need just a weeee bit more time for…. well you know.
Anyway, I can’t tell the whole story here, so I’ll cut to the end, then you can email me to find out where this goes.
It’s at the bottom of my website.
Or to here the whole story.
I tried to forget about this person, but I did a compatibility chart with our birth dates, and He is My King.
He was born 12/24
I was born 11/06 of the following year.
Anyway I sliced it, it was ALLLLLLL GRAAAVY…
Anonymous October 14, 2006 at 11:23 am
I am actually living this, but both of us were not married, nor have children.
We both had relationships thought. We ended them.
It is not easy, because of the distance.
A beautiful and strong friendship is very present, but we did go so deeply into our emotions and honesty.
Every relationship is hard, especially, when you are in ur 30ties, 40ties and you wish not to make the same mistakes. We become very picky and we seek total happiness.
Will ours last?
someone wil have to move to the other country, yes, it is that far.
We both want to share the everyday routine but it is scary, because the only way is by moving and that person will lose the confort of his job, family and friends if the experience does not work well.
But life is so short. The question is: Is this for real?
Jack's Shack October 6, 2005 at 3:44 am
I added to the story
Amy October 5, 2005 at 9:30 pm
This is my story. From start to middle, and I would suspect even the end. This is my story.
Jack's Shack September 19, 2005 at 4:30 pm
Oops, I totally screwed up your name, my apologies. That was rather lame of me.
Jack's Shack September 19, 2005 at 4:27 pm
That is still to come.
Miladysa September 19, 2005 at 4:24 pm
And then ….?
Jack's Shack August 30, 2005 at 5:52 am
Hi Callie- I’ll keep you posted.
callieischatty August 29, 2005 at 8:39 pm
well make sure when there is an ending that you tell me I can’t wait to read it
Jack's Shack August 24, 2005 at 5:43 am
There is an ending, but I haven’t worked it all out yet.
callieischatty August 24, 2005 at 5:12 am
I came back to see it end but is there an ending?
Assorted Babble by Suzie August 9, 2005 at 6:59 pm
I can so relate to this story in many ways. Thank you for writing it so beautifully. I enjoyed this post immensely, and will be back to visit also plan on reading more of your blog.
I feel appreciation for my two wonderful great friends that lead me here. One referred me Ledge End and Normal Jew for posting what he did today for me to find you.
Sending a Smile your way!!
fsgsf August 9, 2005 at 5:15 pm
Wow! Very well written post!! I was referred to this post by lejend, as he thought it apropo to the post i posted today!!
NJ from NJ
Jack's Shack August 9, 2005 at 3:45 am
One more thing. If you enjoy my writing you might also enjoy another story that I am in the middle of. It is much longer. You can find it in its entirety at http://fragmentsoffictionpart4.blogspot.com/2005_07_01_fragmentsoffictionpart4_archive.html or by clicking here.
Jack's Shack August 9, 2005 at 3:42 am
The needs of the two outweighed the needs of the many here.
You may have something there. Since this is a fictional account I can take some license to work on this in any number of ways.
I have to consider them and see what makes the most sense. In theory we could take it from the angle that Daniel and Anne are no longer in love with their existing spouses.
If we go from that point do we still meet the test of the needs of the many outweighing the few. I wonder. Food for thought.
Anonymous August 9, 2005 at 3:09 am
Elie is right…it’s a quite a riveting story with no happy ending…only a brick wall and lots of pain. (But I would like to hear more of it as the saga continues….)
Elie August 8, 2005 at 11:17 pm
I guess what I meant was that even if Daniel and Anne end up happy (which several commenters above doubt), their spouses and kids will be terribly hurt. The needs of the two outweighed the needs of the many here.
Jack's Shack August 8, 2005 at 7:40 pm
If you are suggesting that someone is going to be unhappy here I suppose that is true.
But in theory I don’t see why the couple that met online could not be happy.
Elie August 8, 2005 at 7:02 pm
I guess I can’t picture one (except something ridiculously contrived such as the two spouses were also in love with one another). But you’re the writer!
Jack's Shack August 8, 2005 at 6:51 pm
Why can’t it have a happy ending.
Elie August 8, 2005 at 5:24 pm
A riveting story. But it’s also depressing because there is no possible happy ending.
Sanora August 8, 2005 at 4:37 pm
they weren’t looking for anything but somehow they both ended up posting on a bulliten board? they were looking for something and they found it…the question is, is it the real thing? are they truly married to the “wrong” person or are they simply not engaging with their spouses….what would have happened if they opened up and were “completely honest” about how they’re feeling, sad, lost, alone to their spouse, would the spouse step up to the plate?
I’ve been divorced, I know couples can grow apart or be wrong for each other all along…I’ve remarried, I know that there are other soulmates out there…I just agree that written word and one encounter will of course have an intensity missing in day to day life
Jack's Shack August 8, 2005 at 2:50 pm
Who knows, maybe I’ll add to this story.
Stacey August 8, 2005 at 12:54 pm
This was so beautiful. I can’t wait to see how the story ends.
bornfool August 8, 2005 at 12:49 pm
Wonderful story. Well written and packed with emotion.
Laura August 8, 2005 at 12:16 pm
It is an intense love affaIR, but will it last and what are the pair of them throwing away, not to mention two families, four sets of parents.But id it is real then life is not a rehersal….. it is real!
callieischatty August 8, 2005 at 12:03 pm
This kind of stuff really happens its very realistic.
Melliferous Pants August 8, 2005 at 6:36 am
Great story. I like that you left the ending up for grabs.
Jack's Shack August 8, 2005 at 5:22 am
callieischatty August 8, 2005 at 5:15 am
I think Anne and Danial should forget it btw.
People seem very exciting when you don’t have to live with them, pick up their dirty socks and make dinner for their parents and other relatives.
Life brings reality home and one should never jump from the frying pan to the fire.
If both are happy at home, why ruin the lives of the children for some nonsense like this?
They must not communicate anymore with each other.
If they DID marry it would be great unhappiness in no time as the mundane realities of life set in.
No more of this. Its not right.
They can’t just meet and have sex! This is wrong!
No no no! Think of the children and the spouces…this is not right.
callieischatty August 8, 2005 at 5:08 am
this is a great blog, you comment to that Presbytarian guy was outstanding.
I admire your blog and you really made an excellent point that went over his head I am afraid.