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Archives for February 2011

Eight Posts

February 18, 2011 by Jack Steiner Leave a Comment

A snapshot of recent posts:

  • The Song of My Heart Has Gone Silent
  • “Bar’chu!” (I’m A Jew) — Remix of Cee-Lo Green’s “Forget You”
  • What I am Listening To
  • The Ocean
  • The Stories I Don’t Tell

And just for the hell of it, links to some older posts that you might enjoy:

  • The Little Boy’s world is still upside down
  • Instant Messenger
  • The Germophobe

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The Song of My Heart Has Gone Silent

February 17, 2011 by Jack Steiner 30 Comments

Here is my submission for The Red Dress Club. The prompt is as follows:

Write a piece – 600 word limit – about finding a forgotten item of clothing in the back of a drawer or closet. Let us know how the item was found, what it is, and why it’s so meaningful to you or your character.

The song of my heart has gone silent. She has left me to live my life alone and apart. My girl has gone away and left me with questions unanswered and words unsaid. But the moments and the memories live on. At times unwanted and unasked for they appear unannounced- parading past my minds eye they remind me a time that was.

Silver basketball shorts shimmer in the sunshine. A drawstring hangs from the waistband. Gently swinging in the breeze it reminds me of a metronome that keeps time to a beat that no one can hear. Except I can hear music. A symphony of silence surrounds me and I hear the soft singing of the woman that was.

She who used to glide into the room would recognize these shorts. If she was magically transported into the room she would see them and give me a knowing look.  A shared moment would take place as we moved back to where we once were.

I cannot say if she would share her smile with me for she has intentionally tried to hide her heart from me. My words go unanswered and my pleas are unheard. But I like to think that were she to see these shorts she would smile and remember a time where we shared a moment that lasted for eternity.

She stood before me and I pulled her into my arms. Her head against my chest I buried my nose in her neck and inhaled. She smelled of cinnamon and spice or something similar. Her presence was intoxicating.

We were best friends who had discovered a secret. We were lovers and confidants. I was her hero, hopelessly devoted and so very scared. I wore those shorts and a tank top- a premeditated moment in which I tried to show off muscles that had been worked hard just before she arrived.

I didn’t know what would happen. Could barely breathe, looked down and saw dark eyes looking up at mine. Lips locked, eyes wide open we stood there daring destiny to destroy that which couldn’t be broken.

Later I head to the court determined to exorcise my demons by daring them to meet me beneath the basket. Silver basketball shorts shimmer in the lights like glimmers of moonlight reflected off the waves at sea.

Silver basketball shorts shimmer in the moonlight. Staring skyward I close my eyes and set my soul free. If I could I would sever its ties to me and let it wander through the ether without me. Would let it wander without me because I can always feel her presence

Reason says let go. Hope says no. Heart battles head. I close my eyes and see her looking back at me. Echoes of the past meet echoes of the future. Soft whispers on the wind tell tales of promises broken and those yet to be filled.

Once I was her hero and she my girl. Heart battles head.  The dresser drawer remains open before me. Would a hero give up or would he put on silver basketball shorts.

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“Bar’chu!” (I’m A Jew) — Remix of Cee-Lo Green’s “Forget You”

February 17, 2011 by Jack Steiner Leave a Comment

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What I am Listening To

February 17, 2011 by Jack Steiner 4 Comments

Cars, entitlement, achievement and critical thinking are on my mind but there isn’t time to prepare a post yet. So here is a quick look at some of the songs of the day:

The Hungry Wolf– X
Tougher Then The Rest– Bruce Springsteen
Who Do You Want To Be– Oingo Boingo
Hello Goodbye– The Beatles
Chain Of Fools– Aretha Franklin
I Will Find You (From “The Last of the Mohicans”)-Clannad
Jackson– Johnny Cash June Carter Cash

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The Ocean

February 17, 2011 by Jack Steiner Leave a Comment

The Magic Bridge / El Puente Mágico (Explored !)It is the summer of 1984 and I am watching a bunch of girls dance to Cruel Summer. My friends and I are entranced by the way they move, their hips swaying, hair bouncing, smooth skin barely covered by bikinis. We are at the beach and the summer has been anything but cruel to us. We’re tan, cocky and confident, at least most of the time. We see them staring at us and don’t know what to do.

We want to talk to them. Each of us has picked out one that we think is hot but none of us have worked up enough courage to say hello. It is the summer before high school and we have learned enough about girls to realize that we need to be cool.  A few years earlier that might have meant wrestling on the ground while they roll their eyes at us. Now we are smart enough to have brought a football with us.

Thank god for the ball because we still don’t know what to do with ourselves and our overactive hormones are making us crazier than normal. So now we can tackle whomever happens to be carrying the ball and in theory impress the girls. While I would like to say that we were smart enough to have taken the ball along for that purpose I cannot because it would be a lie.

We brought the ball because it is fun to toss around and maybe those television commercials have some truth to them. Maybe we can accidentally toss the ball in their direction and meet them. There is a new movie called The Karate Kid that a lot of people are talking about. It has the Japanese actor who was on Happy Days and some kid we haven’t heard about.

But we went to see it and came out of there energized. Mr. Miyagi is pretty cool and there are lots of “Wax on, Wax off” jokes, most of them centered around masturbation. After all we are 15 and we think it is funny to make jokes about self love.

After a while we stop tossing the ball around and grab our Boogie Boards. We are at the beach a lot, but we aren’t surfers. Most of us have done it, but it is not something that we do often. We live in Los Angeles but the beach is a 35 minute trip and during the school year there is homework and whatever other extracurricular activities we are involved in.

So we race to the water and time stands still. I love the sound of the surf and the feeling of the sand beneath my feet. I am a strong swimmer and have spent enough time swimming in the ocean to know how to swim with it and not against it. I love hearing the roar of the waves as they take me back to shore. I hit the shallows and I turn around and run back in to do it again.

Later on I’ll head back to my towel and collapse face down upon it. The warmth of the sun on my back and the sounds of the beach serenade me to sleep. There is a hand on my shoulder and someone tells me I am snoring. It takes a moment for me to realize that it is a girl talking to me. I don’t know her, but she is very pretty.

We’ll become friends and I’ll see her every week at the beach. Later that summer I’ll go to sleep away camp. But before I go she’ll give me a picture of herself. On the back it says “think of me” and I do. We haven’t ever kissed, but she always hugs me hello and goodbye. I figure that must mean something.

We write each other letters, the old fashioned kind with pen and paper. She asks if I have a girlfriend and I say no. I’ll come home from camp and we’ll start talking on the phone daily.

Later on at a youth group dance I’ll work up the nerve to kiss her. She’ll turn her cheek and tell me that we’re just friends. As I walk away crushed all I can hear is the roar of the ocean.

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The Stories I Don’t Tell

February 17, 2011 by Jack Steiner 1 Comment

Sometimes the best stories I have are the ones that I don’ t tell here on the blog. There are elements of fact and Fragments of fiction scattered in pieces random and specific throughout the posts you read. There are moments where I open my heart and expose the softer side intertwined with songs of silliness. There is a rhyme and a reason that only a few are exposed to and that is by design and purpose. Moments of utter joy are scattered throughout my words. Some who have been given the key recognize those moments just as they see moments of doubt and pain.

There is an ongoing search for answers to questions that both soft and silly as well as those that are serious. A yin and a yang surround these words

Sometimes I read that which I have written and cringe. The reasons why vary but most of the time it is because I find that the words rankle my soul. They scrape and grind against soft places that haven’t been made hard yet. They shock and or embarrass me and that is saying something for I don’t embarrass easily.

But there are stories about my life and the people I love that would make very fine additions to those that have already been shared. There are moments in time that are meaningful, significant and sacred. Sometimes it is ok to share the sacred so that we can connect with others who we wish to understand us more completely. But sacred is not for everyone. It is special and that is part and parcel of why it is sacred.

Shift a few letters and sacred is converted to scared and that is part of why I don’t share some stories. I fear to reveal them because the consequences would not be mine to bear alone. They are tales that demand to be told- these stories must be heard but only by certain people and within the proper context.

Sometimes the stories I don’t tell are the best that I have.

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