Gratitude. Â I keep repeating that word over and over. It is my silent mantra and one that I hope will help me change my current attitude.
That is because at the moment I have a bad attitude. I have a long list of grievances that are chapping my hide and am frustrated because instead of shrinking the list seems to be growing.
I wonâ€™t talk to certain friends about it because I donâ€™t want to hear about how it can always be worse. I know that. Fact is that someone very dear to me just lost her father to a terrible disease. Another friend lost her baby and someone else I know lost her sister and mother in September.
Lost being the euphemism I am using for death, that is.
So I know damn well that it could be worse and I am just not interested in hearing about it. It is not helpful and it is not going to make my crap disappear.
But I am a father and I donâ€™t get to go to the local dive bar, get drunk and start a barroom brawl. Got to tell you that there is a part of me that sort of wants to try that but there is a much bigger part of me that doesnâ€™t like getting hit and isnâ€™t willing to deal with the hangover that comes with it.
Besides if I want to engage in major acts of stupidity I can think of things that are far more fun and far less painful than that brawl I mentioned. You should really just pretend that I never…
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