â€œDon’t be too timid and squeamish about your actions. All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better.â€
â€• Ralph Waldo Emerson
â€œFinish every day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.â€
â€• Ralph Waldo Emerson
It is me again, your old pal Jack. I am following up on the note that I sent you in early November. Remember, I said that I am a semi-skeptic but that I am opening myself up to possibilities and opportunities. I suggested that if you wanted me to respond faster to your messages you should be more clear in what you say and how you say it.
Well, I still stand by that. I fancy myself a writer who dreams of one day earning the title of wordsmith so it is important to me to try to be precise with words. And by precise I mean to have the ability to make them dance, sing and shuffle on command. By precise I mean to have a strong enough command to say nothing when I mean something and something when I mean nothing.
Anyway universe things are beginning to move and I am sort of excited. I hear chains rattling and the creaks and squeaks of things shifting and I know that changes are on their way. Got to tell you that I am a mix of scared, proud and excited about some of these things.
I am proud because some of it was tough. You sent a few dragons and demons this way but didn’t bother to include a sword, shield or holy water. You forced me to deal with these beasties by using my own ingenuity and resourcefulness. In a few cases that mean that I had to take a beating and you know that is never much fun.
It sucks being smacked in the face and though I give as good as I get it is not the sort of physical horseplay that I prefer. Doesn’t mean that I shy away from it but the best part of being 40 something is that I don’t need to prove a damn thing to anyone other than myself. I mention this only because it felt like a couple of those situations played out in the public arena and I don’t know why that was.
This is where good communication comes in handy. Did I misunderstand what I was supposed to do or did the 230 pounds of five year old take over. Beats me, but I am sure you will let me know.
So universe, I have to tell you that my fear is really more of the good kind of excitement. I have this ticklish feeling in my feet and butterflies in my stomach. It is the kind of thing that makes me a little crazy. It reminds me of those days on the swim team when I would start getting prepped for my races.
I would find a quiet place in the bleachers and put on my Walkman and try to chill out, but sometimes that adrenalin would make my heart race and I would picture myself slicing through the water. The best moments always came when that surge hit while I was standing on the blocks, because when the gun went off I really did fly…
So universe I asked you for a bunch of things and it looks like you are delivering on them, at least I hope you are. I have three that are particularly important but I won’t mention them here but I think you know what they are.
But I will say ask that you give me a hand with the kids. They are good children but sometimes I think that they got a triple dose of my stubbornness and an extra shot of know-it-all. If you could help clear the wax out of their ears so that they understand that sometimes it is smarter to listen than to learn by doing I would appreciate it.
And universe let’s take a look at 2012 and review a few other things.
1) I am working out daily. The weights, treadmill and I are in synch but the diet isn’t quite what it could be.Â I recognize that my metabolism isn’t willing to pretend that we’re 18 anymore but I could use a hand here. Do I really have to give up carbs or can we negotiate terms that would be agreeable to both of us.
2) It would be great if you could give me more time to write and work on this book that we know I have in me. I don’t need much time at all to write these posts, but I need a few minutes to write the book. I want to take bits and pieces of the fragments and then weave them together into something that is bigger than they are alone. Here, I’ll share some links.
Anyway universe, it is after midnight and these kinder who call me abba expect me to have some time to play with them tomorrow so I think that sleep is going to be needed sooner than later.
I have a lot more to say and much more to share with you. Can’t wait to see if I what I have been told will happen really does and am ready to embrace all that comes my way.
2012 is going to be something special. What do you think?