Building a Future
I wrote the story below for Yeah Write. It appears on myÂ story blogÂ but I received so much feedback on it I thought I would share it here with you.
It starts just below the asterisks:
The 198,383th time I heard thatÂ pride goeth before a fallÂ I made a face and pretended to hang myself. Blame it upon the arrogance of youth.
I hadnâ€™t yet learned that life has a way of humbling us and that it was the sort of education that wasnâ€™t very pleasant.
You see I fell in love with a girl and I loved her fiercely. I loved her madly. I loved her passionately. I loved her in every way that the poets wrote of, spoke of and dreamed of.
I loved her with all of my heart and all of my soul. I loved her desperately and somewhere in that madness I lost her.
We were much younger then and no one could have predicted that things would go as they did. I wasnâ€™t her type and she wasnâ€™t mine. Not unlike so many other couples on paper we had everything in common and nothing in common.
I canâ€™t tell you if there are soul mates or things are meant to be but I can say that if there is a master chemist they created the perfect mix of magic. It wasnâ€™t just because there was a ridiculous amount of lust but because we liked each other.
It is just before dawn and we are lying in bed. My flight leaves in five hours. In a few minutes youâ€™ll wake up and weâ€™ll engage in some early morning exercise.
Midway through my shower youâ€™ll join me and try to convince me not to leave. Iâ€™ll look down and weâ€™ll make eye contact and Iâ€™ll think I am crazy to leave, but Iâ€™ll force myself to beÂ strong.
â€œI love you baby, but I canâ€™t pass this up. I have to give it a shot and I canâ€™t ask you to wait for me.â€
Tears well in her eyes and she tells me that it is a mistake. She says that I should wait a bit longer and sheâ€™ll be able to come with me.
I smile and hug her.
â€œI want to get things started. It is for our future.â€
She nods her head but I miss the look in her eyes. This isnâ€™t her being understanding. She has already decided that if I insist on going she will too. She is ready to build a life and wants to start now.
Years later I see clearly what I missed then. The future I wanted to build disintegrated that day.
I made a mistake.
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