The times they aren’t a changin’ because they have already changed and it has become clear the crazy times have been unleashed again.
â€œThe difference between genius and stupidity is; genius has its limits.â€ â€• Albert Einstein
Moments like now are challenging because you feel like your heart has been ripped out of your chest, your brain is screaming full stop and the world is saying “fuck you little man, deal or don’t deal.”
And the funny thing about it all is that just when I think that the screaming I hear is coming from my own throat I realize there is nothing but silence around me because I have pushed aside and away all that is clawing at me so that I can clear my head.
In the momentary absence of chaos I can see exactly what to do, how to do it and why I should. That sort of clarity is invaluable and the kind of thing that people would pay millions for.
And then the moment is gone and my sense of security and knowledge of how to do it is shattered.
â€œLife is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving.â€ â€• Albert Einstein
Can’t argue with my buddy Albert because that is what I am doing, what I have always done. Still it has been a very hard few weeks filled with much good but some serious changes that have turned everything in life upside down again.
It is a period of reentry where I am trying to regain my bearings and it has been very hard. I feel like I had to fun at full speed to catch a moving train and that when I caught it I fell and bounced around the inside of the cabin.
My entire body hurts and it is not an exaggeration that the sore muscles in my back have sent word that their muscles are also sore.
It reminds me of that old television show The Greatest American Hero. Guy is given a suit withÂ magic powersÂ but he loses the instructions so even though he can fly and has super strength he keeps bumping into things.
For that one brief moment an angel answered all of my questions and I smiled and felt a perfect sense of calm because I knew how to get it all done.
And then the moment was gone along with the knowledge. Clarity left and took calm with it leaving me angry and frustrated because I can almost remember.
So very close and yet so far.
â€œI am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination. Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world.â€ â€• Albert Einstein