One of the greatest moments of my life was recognizing how little has to change to make an immediate and significant impact upon my life.
I could lay out all of the details and requirements here on this page but superstition won’t allow me to place it here for all of us.
Instead I’ll share that each night as I lay my head upon my pillow I ask for help in going the last mile and promise to do what I can to help facilitate it.
And I’ll say that money is only a piece of it, granted it could be a big piece but it doesn’t have to be.
Hell, if I net $20k more a year it would be enough to shake things up in a positive way.
That is pretty damn exciting.
No Rest For The Wicked
Can’t rest on my laurels and expect things to automatically go where and how I wish them to be.
Got to keep pushing and do what I can to manage what I can and help direct things where possible.
My excitement is tempered by knowing things can turn and that close to the finish line is not the same as crossing it which is why I prefaced this by talking about the continued effort.
It is accountability and announcing to theÂ powers that beÂ whether they exist or limited to my own sense of faith that I am going to do what I can.
And it seems important to add I am disappointed in the behavior of some people I have known for more than 30 years.
We have reached a place where I wonder if the end of our friendship has come and I find it quite sad. I’d like for them to see the celebration and success and to say they have been part of it.
But I am not responsible for their behavior and can’t control what they choose to do or not to do.
I just wish I understood why they are acting as they are, but that is separate from all of this.
All of this, the push to cross the “finish line” and the “issue with some friends would make a great teaching moment for my kids.
I expect the time will come when I’ll get a chance to unpack and share it with them.
Certainly we’ll talk about the need for hard work, the understanding about how much control or lack thereof we have in life and how to live in a way that lets us sleep at night.
But the friendship thing, well to be honest at the moment it feels quite raw so I don’t know that I’ll discuss it.
Oh, who am I kidding, I will, regardless of how it plays out.
Sooner or later I’ll be willing to discuss it and I am sure there will be a time when they find it useful, but dammit.
Aren’t we too old for this crap.
Isn’t there a time when we all act like adults and this childish behavior goes away.
I guess the answer is yes and no followed by I let some of this crap go a bit farther because of the kind of friendship and years of it.
But there is a point it cannot and will not be allowed to cross.
I hope we don’t reach it.
In the interim I am focused on the positive and the pleasant realization of just how close I am to getting so much of what I have hoped for.
That is pretty damn cool, the road to riches is at hand.
Larry April 3, 2017 at 5:49 pm
SOrry for the issues with the friends.
I know what you mean about feeling too old to be dealing with issues with friends. I feel the same.
Jack Steiner April 6, 2017 at 4:23 am
I guess people never change as much as we might hope. Even as we age some stuff stays the same.