I never stopped hearing her song or feeling like I was supposed to be the one hearing it.
Never tried to ask if it was for me or if she knew what she was doing because it felt a bit like looking behind the curtain to see if the wizard was only human.
Years apart but never completely separated we lived parallel lives and kept going as if none of it mattered.
Until the day we shared a meal and real conversation about who we were, are and wanted to be.
It changed everything.
My gut said relax and go with it while my head said be cautious you are not Charlie Brown trying to kick the ball Lucy is holding.
The Songs We Hear
I often told the universe to release me or bring us closer together.
“I don’t know if I am talking to myself or if this is being heard by someone or something that matters and has influence. But just in case I am and you/it do, here is my request. Set me free or change the equation.”
Some days I feared being set free and some days I wondered what happens when you get what you asked for.
And then came the day and the change.
We picked up where we left off and tried not to smile too quickly for fear that it would give away our true thoughts.
That didn’t last because eventually we pulled back the curtains and shared a little bit.
Ever since then the ship has been sailing pretty smoothly towards unknown shores. This is in spite of having told the navigator which way to go.
I choose not to spend too much time worrying or wondering what it all means. Better to be in the moment and to enjoy the ride.
It is a finer way to live.