I feel like a ship that has no anchor.
Don’t know if it is because the full moon is making me feel crazier or if I have simply reached a place where exhaustion has caught up with me.
Maybe it is because I feel like I have been doing it all on my own for so long I have nothing but memories of what real partnership is like.
Can’t lean on others because the load I bring is too heavy and can’t just lie down and give up either. Can’t speak as I want to and can’t be silent.
Can’t settle for less than I deserve and can’t change it all immediately.
Can’t whine and can’t beg.
Can’t understand and can’t believe how I fell down this particular rabbit hole.
Can’t live lies forever.
Can’t lie for life either.
Can only do so much and see what happens.
Got a few ideas and some dreams, can’t pretend they’ll happen on their own.
Can only push ahead.