Someone asked me to describe what is happening at this moment and I said ‘It hurts.’
They asked for more and I shrugged my shoulders because I was unwilling to let it out. Very few want to hear it and fewer still are capable of helping.
This is one of those moments where there is only one path and that is forward. Until I get through it I have to live with the pain.
Not to be a tough guy but because there are no other options and no one else can take it on.
I would let it go if I could, but that is not an option so for a while I have to gut it out and if it means sometimes I scream or howl, well that is what I will do.
It will pass.