I stumbled across some news the other day that has me fired up and I am working through what I want to do about it.
It was something that was hurtful which in turn has led to feelings of anger, sadness and disappointment. I read something online about someone and it answered some questions…maybe.
There is a chance what I read doesn’t mean what I think it does so I have been trying to take a moment to process because I don’t want to jump to conclusions.
I don’t want to waste energy on something that might not be true but my gut thinks my head might be fooling itself. My gut says the reason our heart aches is exactly why we think it does.
Head asks if that is true what do we want to do about it. So part of me wonders what happens if I don’t send out the typical birthday greeting to the individual I am thinking about.
Will it be noticed. Will they care or will they not be bothered at all. Am I being childish thinking about doing such a thing.
Should I Howl At The Moon?
I am bothered by how much this hurts and how disconcerting it is. Should I make like the wolf and howl at the moon.
Will raising a mournful cry make me feel better or will I just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other.
The latter is a definite but the former is questionable so I am howling here and asking myself to be kind.
Kind to me and to not beat myself up for things outside of my control or wishes that I had done something different in the past.
What is done is done and I need to orient my focus on the present and future. But I won’t lie and say this isn’t hard or that this isn’t particularly painful.
My heart hurts.
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