The wise men of life said long ago there is a time for all things and I can’t disagree with their words for I have seen it proven multiple times.
Maybe it is because I have reached a time for grieving and find myself staring at the moon, not knowing whether it is time to run with it or simply howl. Not knowing which will assuage my grief but mostly certain that time will help me heal.
Can’t decide if I want to put pen to paper and see if that will help release what lies beneath the surface or let it run its course in other ways.
So we look at music and find our buddy Bruce singing Cautious Man and recognize something that touches the soul.
Billy felt a coldness rise up inside him that he couldn’t name
Just as the words tattooed ‘cross his knuckles he knew would always remain
Can’t help but move on to Emmylou again singing Goodbye while the memories take me on a journey and I think about things past and present.
Was I just off somewhere
Or maybe just too high?
But I can’t remember
If we said goodbye
Reminds me of the time I ran into someone I used to run with along with a guy I automatically disliked and named “placeholder.”
Wasn’t sure if the universe was playing some kind of sick joke or if it was just dumb luck but I knew I needed to create some distance. Cuz I I knew that if I was face-to-face with him there was a chance I would manhandle him in the kind of way no man ever wants to be handled.
He would be a rag doll and I would be the bear.
Won’t lie and say I didn’t want to ignore my better angels and to let myself slip back into a man I had once been but who I had given up being.
Maturity has its gifts and sometimes they include recognizing a time for grieving.
So maybe this is the moment where I rediscover a new purpose for this place.
Revisiting The Past
So I am continuing to tear this joint apart while I update, adjust and pivot. Don’t know where it will take me or what it will look like yet but I think I’ll find out.
In the interim here are more links to old work that will probably stick around for a while but may end up getting deleted, hard to say.
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