“Your head is humming and it won’t go, in case you don’t know,
The piper’s calling you to join him,
Dear lady, can you hear the wind blow, and did you know
Your stairway lies on the whispering wind?” Stairway To Heaven
The music is playing and the tune I am hearing grows louder and stronger. I sense the need to include bits and pieces from other posts and that if I do a proper job there might be one hell of a story to tell and or share here.
So consider this me running with the moon and the words that follow my attempt to weave together a tapestry that tells the tale I want to tale and perhaps the one you want to read.
Wonâ€™t be long before the Traveling Jack takes to the skies again. I feel it in my bones. Got so much to do and see and the changes keep on rolling. I keep working hard to take care of a million different tasks and am interrupted a million different times.
These interruptions are irritating and I am growing really impatient.
Some might say that the universe is trying to get my attention. I would answer by saying that I keep telling Joe Universe that I am listening. Got a cellphone, land line, Twitter, FB account and 25 email accounts. It is not hard to find me.
Someone tell the Scarecrow to ring the Tin Woodsman and the Lion because I am ready to start walking again. Canâ€™t keep listening to the tick tocking of the clock- got to moveâ€¦
I feel like I am stuck on that Yellow Brick Road except I know that the wizard is just a man and any flying monkey that is foolish enough to mess me with me will find itself permanently grounded.
Another day in which I stare at the face in the mirror and find myself shocked when he talks back to me. That dude with the thousand mile stare and the bad attitude tells me that I am in control of everything and nothing. He says that it is up to me to make it happen and that I have nothing and no one to blame because no one cares.
He is right you know, no one cares about the excuses we make for why things donâ€™t happen.Â We all have our cross to bear and troubles to share. That doesnâ€™t mean that I think that no one cares or that no one can offer a helping hand because that is not what I see or think.
I know from experience that if you ask for help you can find it. It might not always be what you want or even what you need. Part of that is because we donâ€™t always know what that need is. And if you combine that with the way that some people refuse to ask for help you have a recipe for a little bit more chaos and confusion than you might like.
â€œI believe we have two lives: the one we learn with, and the one we live with after that.â€ Iris Gaines From The Natural
The headline should be changed to sometimes Bloggers Are Insecure because that is more accurate. It reflects the truth or maybe it reflects my truth.
Sometimes when I donâ€™t receive many shares or comments I suffer from Blog Envy and Tweet Esteem issues. Most of the time I donâ€™t care because I love what I am doing too much not to do it.
This place you are visiting, it is my refuge and my salvation. There is so much joy in the journey I canâ€™t properly express what it means to me.
I can tell you about how I became a writer, stopped and then started again. I can tell you about how blogging has helped put me back on track to what I am supposed to do with my life.
I am a writer.
This is what I am supposed to do. These words you read are magic and are taking me too places I only imagined.
Thirty years ago I wanted nothing more than to be an outfielder for the Dodgers. I was good. I led the league in home runs. No one had a better arm than I did. I threw out a boy at home plate.
I still remember scooping up the ball in center field and firing it home. It was perfect. He slid right into the tag.
Everybodyâ€™s Got Something To Hide Except Me And My Monkey
Ever hear of this band called The Beatles? Once upon a time they were considered to be pretty special. Do you think people criticized them for using that last subhead as the title of a song.
Did people go running Helter-Skelter because they couldnâ€™t find Sgt. Pepper to tell him about the fool on the hill or the guy who said he was the walrus.
Not unlike most people I am on a journey, a spiritual quest of sorts and I feel like I am doing the two steps forwards, one step backwards dance. It is sort of an awkward and ugly shuffle but I am not built for grace.
That is ok with me because I know who I am and what I am about. I have a goal in mind and a general idea for how to get there. That is my way of saying I see the spot on the mountaintop I want to reach but I donâ€™t see the fucking trail.
Not that it makes much difference, I walk, I hike and I climb. Doesnâ€™t much matter whether there is a path or not because while I may not climb like a monkey or mountain goat I get where I am going.
I suppose some of you are going to scratch your heads with this one. Some of you are going to wonder if The Mad Hatter is going to show up. Some of you are going to wonder if you’ll ever see the five minutes you just lost again, but not all of you.
That is because some of you will understand the parts and pieces. Some of will follow what it means to run with the moon and to feel like you are on a quest.
I Stopped Trying To Figure It Out
One of my favorite things about blogging is that it provides a venue for me to just dump out the contents of my head. Think of it as a giant closet that is being emptied so that the contents may be sifted and sorted.
That is sort of what this post is. It is a collection of fragments of old posts and some thoughts. It is me turning over the toy chest and trying to decide which toys are worth keeping and which need to find new homes.
When I stopped to trying to figure it all out and stopped trying to control everything life got much more interesting and more enjoyable. Now I am like Huck and Tom rafting down the Mighty Mississippi.
Or maybe it is more appropriate to say I feel like I am surfing a giant wave and instead of fighting the ocean I am going with it. There is joy in the journey, all you need to do is look for it.
BTW, if you are interested in the posts that were used for this one you can check out:
- Bloggers Are Insecure
- Use Your Time Wisely
- How Much Influence Does Money Have On Your Life?
- You Wonâ€™t Learn How To Blog Or Be Sexier From This Post
- Drunk Blogging for Amateurs
I donâ€™t have all of the answers I have been looking for, but I have found more than a few. I feel a bit like Indiana Jones and though I am sitting at a keyboard it doesnâ€™t mean I donâ€™t wear the hell out of a fedora or am any less capable of using this bull whip.
Canâ€™t tell you what chapter I am on, but I know there is a lot left in this story and I hope you continue to share it with me.