Am I a bad man for saying every time I hear Justin Bieber talk I want to shake and slap some sense into him. Maybe it is because he comes across as an entitled prick or maybe it is because I can be a crotchety old man.
Or maybe it is because he is an entitled prick and I am a crotchety old man who feels like the kid hasn’t had any decent parenting so I think I can help with a quick attitude adjustment.
Not so much by kicking his ass but by taking away his money and forcing him to do manual labor in some third world village where he is not a famous man, but some white guy no one has ever heard of.
The primary problem is that it would probably end up becoming a reality television show and I’d get pissed off because someone would make lots of money off of it and it wouldn’t be me.
The Winter Of A Dad Blogger’s Discontent
I surprised myself with some of the content inÂ Thereâ€™s Gold In Blogging & Other BSâ€¦Â because I opened up in a way I hadn’t expected to. Don’t know if it is evident to anyone but me, but that is ok.
Ok because it showed me that I really have come farther than I realized and that I must be feeling a little less irked about some of the crap I went through. It was hard, really hard and when I look back at some of the things that happened in part of 2013 and ’14 I just shake my head in wonder.
Some people showed their colors leaving me to ask if those were/are true or just related to their own storms, don’t really know and am not particularly worried about it.
That is because there are some things I give to faith and say they will come or they won’t.
A colleague recently asked me if I was relentless or exhausting and I told them that in some areas I am exhaustingly relentless but only if the situation requires it.
When they asked me what it meant I smiled and said not to worry about it.
“I think you owe me a real answer.”
I just laughed and told them not to hurt themselves thinking. When they told me they thought I was being uncool I looked him in the eye and said what was uncool was his expectation he could only take and never give.
“Now you are just being a dick.”
“No, I am planting seeds for the future. That is how smart people work, they plant seeds and do their best to be good stewards of the land they are tending to.
Lessons Learned & Lessons Shared
Steiner the minor, the teenage boy who can almost share some of my clothes and I have regular conversations about life.
I have many with his sister too, but they tend to be of a different nature. Some of it is because she says she needs her mom for girl talk and I am just not a girl.
As long as she keeps talking to me about important things I am cool with her bouncing more things off of mom because there are some things I’ll never understand quite the same way.
And that is why the not so little boy anymore comes to me with certain questions. I do my best to share the lessons I have learned along the way but the truly hard stuff is hard because it is usually stuff you have to figure out on your own.
The experiences that break your heart, be they love affairs or business deals gone sour aren’t created in such a way that you can provide step-by-step directions through.
All you can do is listen, be supportive and try to help them understand you know more about it than they realize and that you survived whatever it is/was.
That is part of what I love about these quotes I sometimes share with you here because I can share them with the children too and have discussions we might not otherwise have.
I tell them that so much in life is predicated upon hard work and what you put in intermixed with luck/karma/fate or whatever else it is you want to call it.
Speaking Of Faith
I have been wrestling with it for years, trying to figure out how much is based upon stuff we can control, things we can’t and all that lies in between it.
For the past few weeks I have had something playing around in the back of my mind, some subconscious message or thought that I have tried to flesh out by writing here or here but I haven’t quite worked out what I am supposed to think or take from it.
What I keep hearing is the voice at the end of the Star Wars trailer that say “let it in.”
Intermixed with it is a sense that if I start the right exercise, take the right path or do this one thing I am going to move from where I am at to somewhere else.
When I close my eyes and let my mind loose I see myself at my age but with the body I used to have and some peace of mind I haven’t had for a while.
I figure it is all going to happen because of seeds I planted and the effort I put in to be a good steward of the land.
The big trick here doesn’t lie in figuring out how it happened or why but just allowing for the possibility.
It might be as simple as recognizing I have been in my own way or it might be something else. The point isn’t to push to make it happen it is to just water the flowers and see they get plenty of sunlight and live not just with purpose, but with joy because two is always stronger than one.