Traffic to visit, read and engage others here at the good ship some refer to as The Mighty JackB is nothing compared to what it once was.
The comments are few and far between and I am beginning to wonder if this is part of the usual summer slowdown or a sign of something more.
Might be nothing, might be that I have so much going on now it is hard to keep juggling all the balls I have in the air.
Less bandwidth to deal with the non-essentials so it is natural that something gives, except I have never slowed down like this before, not here.
So it makes me wonder if maybe that mythical end of the road is a little bit closer than I had thought or realized.
Or maybe it is just another evolution.
The End Of The Road Meets Stock Photography
Most of the stock photography you see here comes from Unsplash or Pixabay.
Kind of funny to me to think about how many years I went without inserting any photos into posts and how hard I fought against it.
For a long while I foolishly saw it in simplistic terms where photos would be inserted so that my pictures would be pinned on Pinterest.
I didn’t want to get involved in Pinterest and overextend myself so I figured that leaving photos off made it easier for me to focus on publishing my words.
And then reality slapped me in the face and I started thinking about how pictures could enhance the stories and posts I share here so I hopped on the hamster wheel and started inserting them into new and old.
I am not done writing, telling or sharing stories.
Definitely something that will always be a part of who and what I am, but there is no doubt that change is here.
No doubt that I have taken certain parts of life for as long and hard a ride as I intend to.
It is time to move on and do something different, time to embrace the future by moving some of this other crap into the past.
Don’t mistake that to mean that I am going to shut this blog down because I don’t plan on doing that now.
Doesn’t mean it can’t or won’t happen either, but it is possible.
What is more likely is that I’ll start running for the door I see up ahead because I am tired of being in transition and the faster I get here there sooner I can begin.
Change can be good.
Sometimes holding onto the past keeps us from becoming who we could be and that is not something I want to miss.
Been talking with my kids about some of these things and the changes I see coming. Told them to remember I will always be their father but to remember I am a man also.
Men have dreams, goals and ideas just as children do and I have done my best to make it work for all of us.
Sometimes I have subjugated my dreams for the good of my children.
Did so without regret but not without second thought.
Not going to lie and make me look like something I am not by saying there weren’t times I asked myself if I was making a mistake by doing that.
But if the conclusion was that it was better for my children than I made the decision to do what was best for them.
And now we have reached a place where certain choices do not offer black and white answers to what is best.
A point where they are old enough to understand that sometimes we take calculated risks because it could be very good for us.
So that is what I intend to do, take a calculated risk that I think will benefit all of us.
Doesn’t mean I am not nervous or worried, but I have confidence in my abilities and most importantly, confidence in theirs.
We’ll all figure things out and if it goes 25% as well as I hope, well the future is pretty freaking bright.