I spent five out of the last seven days slinging iron in the gym and was reminded rather aggressively about how much time I have spent outside of it.
The audible cracks and creaks combine with sore muscles to make it clear that I can’t just pick up where I left off, no matter how badly I might want to.
Can’t just walk into and do what I did or expect my body to respond as if no time has passed and so I find myself having to make a significant effort to be patient.
It is the smart and mature move–I hate it.
And the silly thing is if my kids or friends asked for advice I would tell them to take their time.
Be smart, be safe and work your way back.
Guess I am not particularly good at taking my own advice.
Ask The Old Man About Age
I haven’t seen my family since January 1 and am starting to get excited because we’re only a few weeks away before the next visit.
And we’re all of two months or so before the move and we live together again.
That is a good thing, an important thing and something I am looking forward to.
It is not easy to parent from a distance and I haven’t been pleased that I have had to do it, but it is part of making a better life for us all and I think ultimately it will work.
There have been some very hard moments and challenges and it hasn’t been as smooth or easy as I had hoped.
There is some guilt and anxiety about the changes.
A certain amount of nervousness about whether it is going to be good and some fear that it could go south.
I don’t really think it will, but it might and that would to use a technical term…suck.
But I figure old Al is correct and that the only way to figure it all out is to keep going, got to put one foot in front of the other.
Can’t tell, know or see without trying it out so we’ll push on and see where it leads.
And that leads us back to the gym where the old man is doing his damnedest to stop the clock, if not turn it back.
Most of the time it feels like that is working, but there are moments where I wonder.
Moments where it becomes clear that I am not 25 any more and that I better act like it because this old body starts to bark at me if I don’t behave.
Got to trick it into forgetting how many miles I have put on and think it is younger or at least in better condition.
We’re getting there…slowly.
Not Quite Final Notes
The kids are a mix of excited and nervous about the coming move. They ask questions and tell me they look forward to seeing me.
Sometimes they ask if there is any way to avoid moving and wonder if maybe I could move back instead of them moving here.
I get it.
I feel badly, but sometimes the best thing you can do is take a chance and leave your comfort zone.
I am keeping my fingers crossed, it might be bumpy, but it could be great.
Hope they see it as an adventure and a chance to explore uncharted territory.
Just have to wait and see.