Harry Nilsson doesn’t care that I started this post while listening to what Apple Music calls his essentials and then moved to Gordon Lightfoot and not because he is dead.
Rather it is because I can’t imagine he ever would have stumbled across this place so he would never know about it.
But if he did find it I think he’d be more focused on my having included him in the headline and the post, that is better than not being included, even if you are featured on a smaller joint.
Lost In Her Loving
I’d argue it is far better to get lost in her loving than to never know what that is like.
Even if said love is removed and you feel like the sky has gone dark or the moon has chosen to hide you know something.
That is the sort of experience you never forget because if you get wrapped up in that warmth you have been through something life-changing.
I know a guy who told me he would give it all up because having loved and lost was too damn painful, but I told him he is a fool.
He told me I was the real fool and that you never get it back and I shook my head.
I know better.
Sometimes you get her back and you get another shot, sometimes you don’t.
The focal point ought to be how you learned you can fly and don’t have to settle for being earthbound.
It can present some painful moments when your wings have been clipped but the knowledge of what is possible or trying to discover what is possible is part of the scientific spirit.
There are no advances without a willingness to explore and to dig a little bit.
What Words Will You Use To Speak?
The same guy asked me what made me so certain.
I told him I had kissed a certain girl a thousand times and never tired of it.
“It always felt like we had the most intimate conversations without words, but we spoke.”
“How did you know?”
“I didn’t know in the ‘traditional’ sense, I knew in my gut. And even when we were apart I always felt like we could pick up and resume where we left or even take it to a deeper level because of life experience. If she agreed to let me pepper her pike, well I would absolutely think about it.”
“You’d think about it? Why not just do it?”
“Sometimes it is good for her to hear no. Let her remember it is a true partnership, if we let it be. There is a level of trust that makes the physical work in a different way. It is all based upon the communication because when we let do the depth is unmatched.”
“You make it sound like someone is holding back now.”
“Maybe one of us, maybe both of us or maybe none of us.”
“You are not going to tell me, are you?”
“Nope, that is our business and you aren’t part of ‘our’ are you.”
I laughed and he smiled.
“Well, you ought to tell her what you think about your business. She might be waiting for you to speak.”
“Yeah, she might or she might already know. Maybe she’d prefer not to hear about any of it or maybe she really is waiting.”
“Did anyone tell you that you are a pain-in-the-ass and that you refuse to answer questions.”
“No. Not one single person. :D”
One Step Into The Unknown
Part of me very much wants to hide out in my castle and wait for the chaos and confusion to pass. Part of me wonders if we have really touched upon it or it is trapped inside Pandora’s box waiting to be set free.
Had a situation develop on the job side that has wreaked a bit of havoc. Had a call that can only be described as a brutal beating that left me incensed because it wasn’t my fault.
I think that is understood by the important people but it doesn’t make me feel good.
Nor does getting some assignments that I don’t understand well. If I am going to work on something I want to do a good job and this feels a little loosey-goosey to me.
So I am going to have to draw on a little reserve of courage and push on. That is all I can do.