Time moves faster than I realize because it feels like but a moment since SQ asked me to reconsider leaving and I said not to worry because I would be back.
Been slightly less than a moment since I updated this joint except the calendar shows how very wrong I am on both accounts.
Don’t think I have ever gone this long between posts here and that bothers me because this is one of my homes and I feel like I haven’t taken care of it.
Been busy with important things, meaningful things, things that qualify as more than stuff but it doesn’t take the sting out some of it.
Told SQ that sometimes that familiar ache hits so very hard and didn’t hear anything in return but took silence as acknowledgment because sometimes there is no reason to say much more.
If she stepped into my arms it would feel like no time had passed and the familiarity of home would be there because we carry our home with us wherever we go.
No Time To Do It All
Haven’t got enough time to do it all and too much to ignore what I can do.
Looked in the mirror and shook my head because I see the weight of the past and a face that knows what it means to live, to love and to lose.
A face that knows triumph, sorrow and the in-between.
He can carry the load himself if need be because it is how he is built, but it is not his first choice.
It is why I told SQ it is time to carry each other again and to let go and let be. To take a shot at grabbing that brass ring and to see if the magic is truly eternal as we have always known and believed it to be.
Always said one kiss would bring it all back which is why she hides her lips, because it is known and destiny will force our hands whether we choose to cooperate or not.
So better to march out and meet it on our terms, as best we can.
Why be Charles and Camilla when you could be like that man in black and his girl.
You can face the opportunity and see if the sun still warms your countenance or stand under the clouds and pretend the shadow cannot move.