If You Only Had One Day

Today’s (totally optional) prompt: What would you do with only 24 hours left to live?

A prompt like this works best when you strip away all pretense and write without any concern or worry about what people think, but I am not sure if I have that in me today.

It is not because I am afraid or particularly concerned about what people will think but rather that I am preoccupied with a long list of things to do.

I wonder about what I would do in this situation. I know what I want to say. I want to give the “noble’ answer about spending time with friends and family, about telling people that I love them and trying to make things better for the people I am going to leave behind.

But would I do that? Would I really go that route or would I be entirely selfish?

Would I go for things that I always wanted to do and try to squeeze all the fun I could out of the day?

I don’t know.

Part of me says I might just take it like any other day. Part of me says I would live the day like any other day and that I would just finish things out the way I always do.

But there is that wild spirit inside of me, the guy with the fire in his belly that loves life and does all that he can to suck the marrow out of each day–I don’t think he would be so restrained.

Part of it is because I have said goodbye to too many friends already. I have stood graveside and wished I had one more chance to ride with the top down along PCH.

Part of me says I’d want one more time in that room, a chance to have one last minute together…

This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…

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I Found A Way

It is no secret that the past few years have been filled with numerous challenges and a couple of setbacks here and there. I took a beating and then did it again because I thought it was the right thing to do for my family and I would do it again.

Or maybe I wouldn’t.

Maybe I would do things differently because hindsight is 20-20 and you can always see different ways of approaching things but there is nothing to be gained by looking backwards and saying “I should have” so I am not going to.

Not going to spend my time doing it because I found a way through the fire and though I danced in the flames I made it through. I haven’t gotten quite as far as I want and there are still challenges to be overcome I am confident I will find a way because it is what I do.

There are options in life and they go like this: “Do or do not.”

Yeah I just quote Yoda but that little green Muppet is a Jedi master and wise.

I am not the guy to just lie down and let things happen. It is not always easy to wander through the forest at night without moonlight or a torch because you haven’t a clue what is pulling at your legs or why that scrape suddenly appeared.

Nor are you always sure you are heading in the right direction but sometimes that is how life is. You move forward and take your best guess.

I feel pretty good about it because I found a way.

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  • This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…
  • Set a timer and write for 5 minutes.
  • Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spellchecking. This is writing in the raw.
  • Publish it somewhere. Anywhere. The back door to your blog if you want. But make it accessible.
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Almost Familiar

There are moments where I almost feel like I have adapted to the pace and rhythm of my new surroundings and then I remember that I am only here for just a moment.

That’s because this hotel has always been the first stop in my new home and now it has served its purpose. Tomorrow I am going to move to a new place which is still just a rest stop, but better suited as a base of operations.

It sounds so serious, “base of operations” but that is how I see it. It is set up for an extended stay and what I will use for the “longer short term” period in which I look for a good rental property.

I didn’t want to rent anything sight unseen so I made a point to set things up like this so that I could put some boots on the ground and figure out where the best place to live will be.

The net result of all of this is I haven’t found my groove yet nor adopted a new routine. I have mixed emotions about it.

I like the dynamic environments I am in now but I also like having my “creature comforts” attended to so I am anxious to do the things I need to do to make that happen.

Besides, I am desperate to find a new gym and place to play basketball and I can’t focus on locating that until I have a more “permanent home.” There are bigger problems than this so I suppose I am grateful to be worried about just these things.


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This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…

  • Set a timer and write for 5 minutes.
  • Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spell checking. This is writing in the raw.
  • Publish it somewhere. Anywhere. The back door to your blog if you want. But make it accessible.
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Overthinking Change

Some changes are easily made because it is easy to predict what will happen after you make whatever changes you have chosen to make.

Others are more challenging because you can’t determine what will happen in advance and are forced to work with your best guess. That is not necessarily a bad thing but it can be troubling at times.

That is where I am at right now, operating off my gut and best guess.

Got some big changes coming up in the next few days and my head is spinning. I am excited and optimistic but there are moments of doubt where I think about whether it is the right decision.

That is the challenge of having too much time to think about big decisions. You don’t want to suffer from paralysis of analysis and over think things. It is easily done, this over analysis and I am working on not doing it.

But I am not surprised to see or feel these things. It is just part of the package.

It is also why I try to build my changes with a short turnaround. Take out the extra time where you can so that you don’t fall into the trap of wondering and worrying about  every little detail.

Nothing is forever and there is no reward without some risk.

 

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This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…

  • Set a timer and write for 5 minutes.
  • Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spell checking. This is writing in the raw.
  • Publish it somewhere. Anywhere. The back door to your blog if you want. But make it accessible.
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Stream Of Consciousness Sunday

I splurged on one of those mall massages yesterday because my body feels like I got worked over by two or three guys and their tap shoes.

There are knots, bruises and bumps all over and I ache.

The massage wasn’t long enough and didn’t do enough to take the edge off of things, but the funny thing is I didn’t realize how bad it was until they started working on me.

It is not surprising because I have been too busy to notice much of anything and when you run like I have been running it is easy to be unaware of all that is going on in your world.

The massage was 15 minutes long which apparently was enough time for the back, arms and legs to tell the brain that things aren’t quite right. Of course the stomach has been shouting at me all week long but I ignored him because that bastard has been whining at me for twenty some years or so.

Call it the joy of a dysfunctional digestive system.

So today I decided I am going to build in more time to exercise. If it works as I hope it will help alleviate the stress and work out the kinks that have been hanging out far too long.

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This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…

  • Set a timer and write for 5 minutes.
  • Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spellchecking. This is writing in the raw.
  • Publish it somewhere. Anywhere. The back door to your blog if you want. But make it accessible.
  • Add the Stream of Consciousness Sunday badge to your post (in the sidebar). .
  • Visit your fellow bloggers and show some love.