The JackB

"When you're in jail, a good friend will be trying to bail you out. A best friend will be in the cell next to you saying, 'Damn, that was fun'." Groucho Marx

It Don’t Come Easy

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It is never easy watching your kids go through challenging times where you know they have to figure it out themselves.

You can offer support, guidance and someone to speak with but you can’t take on the monsters for them or they’ll never figure out how to slay dragons on their own.

Got one of those situations going on now, but I hadn’t realized how far it had advanced until we had a certain conversation today.

Made for some heartache and pain but also some pride in seeing how much they have grown and how mature their response is.

Afterwards, I was asked what I want to do and I said I could go kick the asses of those responsible for this and I could.

But that would require ignoring my own advice and gut. Can’t slay the dragon for them.

So now I have to sit, watch and wait.

Dammit.

Simple Truths

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We can add this post to the list that I need to work upon some more and weave into a larger tale. It contains some simple truths that I don’t think have changed.

Got some deep and serious ideas that I’ll incorporate into this but it won’t happen tonight. Tonight is a message to let you know I haven’t forgotten about this place.

I know I have said it multiple times but it is still true, this is still one of my favorite homes and deserving of more attention but time is limited.

That forces decisions that are harder to make but have to be walked through regardless of difficulty.

The changes of life are upon us again, soon we’ll see their impact.

Ask SQ and she’ll tell you, it is why she has spent more time walking with me.

 

She’ll Read It One Day

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Probably need to work on this soon. There is substance here.

Could do it now just in case it is read sooner than later but probably won’t because she’ll read it one day and that is enough for me.

Might be worth taking a breath cuz there might be much to add to it.

Kind of curious to see who chooses to dig into it sooner than later. Kind of curious might even be an understatement.

Probably ought to take some time to spell a few things out for those who aren’t familiar.

Stay tuned.

A Conversation With The Shmata Queen

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Oh Shmata Queen, the stories you and I could tell and still do.

Been thinking about the decades and what goes into it all and what doesn’t. Had more than a few people ask for clarification and more than once refused to say much of anything.

Cue music:

What Life Will We Lead

Multiple conversations with teenagers about their futures and their dreams remind me a bit about those we used to have.

Also gets me thinking about when we refocus on ourselves and what comes next. The kids still require our guidance and help, but not like they used to.

Not even close.

That is ok. If we did a good job we have made them pretty damn self-sufficient and they don’t need us like they used to.

It is bittersweet isn’t it, this sense of wanting to be needed but not wanting it. This feeling that we have to keep pushing and yet don’t want to.

And then this question about what do with ourselves and the additional time we can see coming is hard and yet exciting in its own way, now isn’t it.

Maybe You’ll Read The Other Letters

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Maybe you’ll read the other letters and we’ll have a real conversation about what is in them.

Maybe it will be one of those naked honesty conversations we used to have with regularity and we’ll get deep into the muck.

Maybe we’ll find what was lost and maybe we’ll lose what has been discovered.

Lots of maybes and lots of reasons why exploring some paths again would be different now than in that time that way.

Maybe we’re so very different it has caused a fracture that cannot be repaired or maybe fear of what could go right is stronger than the fear of what could go wrong.

Lots of maybes with no way to answer without walking through the door and diving into the pool.